" Still, I’m a little stressed…Maybe I have low self-esteem. Maybe I’m not finished working through my issues with my parents. What I want is to become the kind of person who can pay her bills, do her laundry, clean her house, and go to school full-time, and teach, and do research, and publish, and write a spectacular novel, and have a perfect relationship, and be the life of the party, and, okay, maybe not drink quite so much, and, and, and. I want to be superwoman, and the fact that I’m not makes me hate myself and constantly wonder why I’m such a waste. The problem is my life is chaotic. If there were no chaos in my life, there’d be no chaos in my head. "
Marya Hornbacher, Madness (via tiffanygladiator)